Category Archives: Life stuffs

Day 3

Fun stuffs, Life stuffs, Sore spots

I wonder if I should leave Oki in his playpen all the time. Today I put him in the playpen twice and each time when he came out I would let him go to the yard. Being his curious self, Oki found something to eat and play at the very back of the yard, I’m a little worried since I’m not sure what he’s eating. So I tried to put him on the leash but he didn’t want to walk. Another time I kept the harness on without the leash, he would just roaming around. When he came back in the house, he became a little aggressive when he played with me. I didn’t understand until he pee on the floor. I remember he didn’t pee the last time he went out, but I thought I could catch the timing if ever he needs to go….

I felt like a failure when I saw him pee on the floor. I’m thinking “I suck”. Now he’s sleeping in his playpen. I wonder if he was being grumpy because of holding the pee and feeling sleepy at the same time.

To HK

Life stuffs, Sore spots

Mom & Dad are going back to HK today. I can’t explain how my heart is deeply sadden by their leave. There are quite a few heavy feelings with their stay here. How many times I wanted to do my best but feel like I’m never good enough. Mom always has something to say no matter what I do.

Washer/Dryer

Journey to our home, Life stuffs

We found out the washer/dryer don’t fit in the laundry room the way we want, and probably we can hardly open the door to the garage. Hubby was very upset, but I don’t know why. I could have thought of a few reason of why he got very upset. I actually found that his reaction was very cute, hehe~ Somehow for me this is not a big deal, and I’m pretty determined that it won’t stop me from moving it.

If I’ve never said it before, I’ll say it now that knowing how much he loves me. He would always put me first, put my best interest in mind, and protect me from harm. Thank you Hubby for loving me! I might never feel like I deserve your love, but I am loved by you. I am and truly believe that I am loved by you. I love you Hubby! muah!

Friends & Family

Life stuffs, Sore spots

I was happy to see Scarlett, it’s been six years since I last saw her. However, my body doesn’t agree with me, with all the activities I had last week. This tiredness is unbearable. I almost want to lay in the bed all day long, I’m that tired. My whole body is aching, energy level dropped to the lowest, and my mind goes blank.

So this morning when I saw Chris’ message, I’m pissed and annoyed. I’m not able to make changes for my schedule, it’s mentally unable … physically unwilling….. I’m tired for this…. I wish this could come to the end……. I’m tired…..tired…….tired………

the forgotten one

Life stuffs, Sore spots

Yesterday I was supposed to meet Miss K and Miss A in Miss L’s place. It was toward 5pm and I didn’t really want to go because I wasn’t feeling well. I had decided to go nonetheless because I wanted to try to connect with people. Hunny was almost home to pick me up to go there, I was all ready… except it was 5pm already so I texted Miss K that I would be late. It turned out they cancelled the dinner, and again…. I wasn’t informed

Talking about the forgotten one, I wonder why it  is me… I wouldn’t say “always”, but it happened before. I have a pretty good guess now and I think I figure it out somehow. Probably I’m not weighted as important as other people, not gonna compare but I think it’s just a fact. I found myself this time more at ease in heart, somehow I kinda expected.

God certainly will never forget me, I’m sure… very sure because He love is greater than anything/anyone.

dream….

Life stuffs, Spirituality

So I have dreams again lately, and last night was about Mr. C & Miss W. I saw that I was in Hunny’s car and they were beside me. They were riding on a motorcycle and Miss W came by my window to say hi. The red light was gone and green light came on, so we were about moving. Indeed we were moving but Miss W didn’t let go off our car window. Meanwhile I saw Mr. C was getting anxious to go and kept asking Miss W to go back. He was about getting roll as we were also slowly going…. all the sudden Mr. C fell off his bike; however, Miss W was only watching and didn’t go over to help him up. I was puzzled in my dream as of why didn’t Miss W show any care when her husband fell on the ground… I should discuss with Hunny later.

meeting Miss K

Life stuffs

I went to visit Miss K today and we talked a lot of different stuffs. I told her that I appreciated how she didn’t give up on me and continue to contact me. We gave each other our life updates and I expressed my grudges which occurs after the incident. Where at last BBQ I invited myself to go but no one informed me the time… and her initial response when I invited myself…. anyways… it’s all good now