Category Archives: Life stuffs

More than a week

Life stuffs, Spirituality

It’s been more than a week and I would say it’s about few weeks ago that I smell that faint foul smell in the laundry room.

I was jokingly telling Bao that our house smells like death. However, that’s not what I’ve sensed in my spirit.

See, I don’t consider that as bad lucky (even though it’s only the beginning of the year).  My perspective shifts to seeing God reminds us to cleanse all the bad, the sins, and all that He detests in our lives. He reminds us to go to Him daily so that He will cleanse us from our sins. No, it’s not a ritual, but a constant relationship with God that we shall talk to him every moments in our lives.

He reminds me not to give up on this relationship and not to putting him in the back room.

As I posted the last journal, I was reminded that we need to allow the Holy Spirit in our lives.  We need to have our spirit renew again and again.  We ought not to stuck in our daily routine, but forgot that He is God, the centre of our lives. He has provision more than we can ever ask for. He heals and restores us even when I feel miserable. That is why I think those two chinese songs became our theme songs. It’s not about us. It’s all about  Him, how is worthy to be praised

Changes and pain

Dream|Journey, Life stuffs, Sore spots

Our heart ache for this change. Who would have thought there were so many memories only you and I share. From CFN to CC, from CC to PLBC, we grew and witnessed God’s fathfulness through it all. He provided more than we needed and wanted. We’re thankful for the friends we made along this journey. As we sail away to our next phrase. Let’s just say that the changes is good, but it scars us and brings us pain. This mark will forever in our heart. May God remind us your goodness and faithfulness when this mark tugs our aching heart. We’ll continue to bring light to this world. May God be with us.

What dinner?

Life stuffs, Sore spots

Five day ago when I met Miss L, I lightly suggested that maybe we should have dinner this coming Sunday with other families. Life goes on, school started, and I was exhausted with two full days of school. I totally forgot the dinner …. It’s Sunday today and got her message in the afternoon. She told me that the dinner is confirmed, but she forgot to tell.

First, I forgot about the dinner. Second, she confirmed the dinner without letting me know. Third, I felt like I was blamed not showing up since I started the idea for dinner. I can only say that there’s miscommunication in between…. However, it still bugs me when I think about that… it interrupted my thoughts on writing paper, that sucks!

Lord, I admit that I am wrong not confirming or even forgot about the dinner. Will you help me to ease the anger within me. Although, I would like to know why I’m so mad… I don’t have time for this right now. Can you kindly give me peace at heart so that I might finish my paper tonight? Thank you Lord!

4mo 3wks

Fun stuffs, Life stuffs

I kind of understand what Ceaser said when you pull the leash tight that actually made your dog more excited. Postman rang the bell around noon when Oki was napping in the tv room. I didn’t bother to wake up Oki and pull him on the leash while opening the door. So I just walked and opened the door, and talked to the postman. Oki slowly walked over, swagging his tail but wasn’t overly excited. I then held on to his leash, but not pulling. He was standing at the door looking at the postman. By the time we ended our conversation, Oki was just sniffing, swagging his tail, didn’t bark or jump. I wonder if there’s anything I did differently this time, which didn’t make him overly excited… ummm… very interesting

 

Two months

Journey to our home, Life stuffs

Oki has been with us for two months, I can’t believe how time flies and he is such a big boy now! The Rooba has been coming out to do its job, I’m looking at Oki with amaze of how he’s doing well with it roaming around. He is in his pen, observing but didn’t make any sound or shows fear. Although, I’m mad with him biting sometimes, he is still a good puppy. Our puppy that significant to my marriage, my relationship with Hunny. We share a lot of the “first time”, and having Oki is part of it.

A month has passed

Fun stuffs, Life stuffs

Oki is home a little more than a month now, I think he’s adapting well. We missed his second booster shot and third is also due already. He’ll be meeting the vet this Sat, hopefully we’ll have a good time. Lately, the weather is getting better, more light and more sunshine, Oki just wants to get out. We’ve been training him to use the potty bell, but seems like he rings it whenever he wants to go out there sniff around. At least there’s no accident after the first two weeks. I’ve been consistent taking him out for potty and only let him out after potty.

I tried not to lose my temper with him, it’s getting a little better especially I let him follow me around. He’s still a puppy though, he still nips at us sometimes. I hope to take him out for walk after he gets all the booster shots. I know he’ll be happy to get out there to explore the world 🙂

Miracle

Dream|Journey, Life stuffs

The Lord provided what we needed. As I’m such a little faith I always worried that we’ll not be able to afford mortgage and will lose our home. Somehow the thoughts of preparing for the worse always stick with me. I’ve never doubt Hubby’s ability, how he’s capable to do great thing for his work place. I’ve never worried that he won’t get a job or offer, because I know how much he’s capable to do.

Besides, there’s an offer from a firm in Surrey, Mr.N is trying to match the offer so that Hubby will stay. I’m happy for him, knowing that God never cease to amaze us. It’s a miracle that Hubby got a salary raise and he got to stay longer in the current work place. God is good! I’m thankful!

I wonder if I go out there to find a job, who will take me ? I experienced the worst work place ever in my life, however, I wonder if I will ever get a better work place. I lost my faith in people, the world out there seems scary to me. Lately, I’ve been thinking if I still want to study or work. Even with studying, I wonder if I still want to go for counselling, or theology. Something to think about ….

2+ week

Fun stuffs, Life stuffs

I can’t believe it’s only been two weeks since Oki came home. We’ve been happy, angry, sad, and frustrated all these times. Our life has been changed upside down for the good. This little doggy is growing so fast that I need to constantly remind myself to be patient with him.

:(

Life stuffs, Sore spots

Oki was in his playpen chewing his bone, and all of the sudden he started to rip the newspaper. Being a clean freak, I went in to clean up the mess. He kept ripping the newspaper and bit me. I was angry and stomp the floor. That must have startled him somehow. Then I stomped the floor while I walked away, he barked once and then quiet…. what did I do wrong?

This Morning

Journey to our home, Life stuffs, Sore spots

I see the change in your eyes when I look at you. You are tired and probably stress without telling me. The Hunny that I’ve known for so long isn’t the same anymore. It’s not a bad/good change, but rather a heavy burden sitting on your shoulder that made me sad. I blame myself not being able to go out to work. I blame myself for spending so much money. I blame myself not sharing your burden. I can’t even tell if you are enjoying our new puppy due to so much going on. I really really want to help…. I do…