Category Archives: Journey to our home

Oki off the street

Journey to our home, Life stuffs

Postman came and I had to pay for the parcel. Since last time he commented about Oki was well behave, I thought I should let him out to say hi this time. Oki was sniffing and wagging his tail, next thing I know he was running off to the street. Postman casually said that it’s okay, just let him out, but also said go out your leash. I got him at last in front of our driveway.

The frightening feeling didn’t kick in until I check our driveway camera. Oki actually ran all the way to the other side of the street to greet the man who was walking his dog. The clip skipped a bit, I’m not sure anything happened in between. Then he was under the street light pole, where I got him back to the house.

It was scary checking the clip which there was car passing by.

I’m angry at myself not being careful enough to keep him within distance.

I’m angry at myself not training him enough to listen to the command.

There’re lots of “what if….”

my heart is still pounding of this heavy feelings …

because if anything happens

it’s all because of my fault….

reality

Journey to our home, Sore spots

I know I’ve never told you why I’m so neglect in applying for a job. It’s because my mind is set in taking care of mom and dad while they’re here. I can already feel the stress, and knowing what mom will probably nag me about in getting a job.

Yet, I want to spend time with them while I can. I can’t help but having watery eyes every time the thought of they’re getting older and will leave me one day. I think it’s even less than half of my life time I’m by their side, It seems I’m always in Canada.

And the more I think of taking care of them, the more I feel stress because nothing can happen without money.

The thought of going to work is kinda screw up my mind. I’m so afraid of meeting nasty people, nasty leaders, nasty boss….. I can say that I’m pretty anti social now, I must admit I’m not fond of the idea of meeting people.

Again, reality is reality. I hate to talk about money… but reality is I need to work to get more money.

I have a lot of “what if” in my mind…. anyways….

Hubby Thank You!

Journey to our home, Spirituality

As I was looking at your face, I felt that there should be more that I could be doing to ease your burden.

It hurts me to see that you carry all the burdens, which mainly about money, and yet you would never complaint.

I’m thankful, hubby!

You’ve shown me unconditional love and acceptance.

You’ve loved me, more than I’ve ever imagined.

Few months before we started to date, God woke me up one morning. It was 4am and I was fully awake. Holy Spirit promoted me to pray for my future husband. He showed me that I had significant insecurity about marriage. Today, I can say that I was clearly reminded by God at that moment. He said whomever that I would be with in the future, always trust that he loves me and don’t ever doubt it.

God has shown me faithful and his words are true.

You’ve always loved me, even when I have doubt.

You’ve always shown me love, even when I act selfishly.

You’re a God sent husband, truly a gift from God more than I ever deserved.

Thank you, Hubby, for being with me, loving me, showing me what love is.

I pray that everyday I’ll be a better wife than yesterday to you, and to you only.

I love you~

 

Dead Rat

Journey to our home

There’s a dead rat in the house! We initially found a bad smell last night and we thought it was Oki’s poop outside in the deck. This morning the smell continue to be so bad and we turned on the furnace fans. It was still bad throughout the day. Hubby decided to open the crawl space, and right there is the dead rat died in the trap. We need to figure out where it came in. I still think that it’s the hole in the corner of the garage…. anyways, I hope not to see any more in the house ever.

6 mo 1 wk

Fun stuffs, Journey to our home

Today Oki is 6 Mo and 1wk old since his birthday. Also marks today as he is home 3 mo already. He hasn’t grown a lot lately, I can only notice he grow longer but not taller. He is a joy to us although sometimes he can be very naughty.

Every time I look at him, I notice his sparkling eyes as if he wants to tell me something. Probably something like ” can I have more treats please!” =P Joking aside, when I look into his eyes I see loyalty. Though, I trained him to look at me whenever I give him treat or meal, his eyes tell me how much he trust me. It is every time he looks me in the eye, he trust that I won’t tease him but give him what he wants because he followed the command.

This little creature is growing bigger and probably taking more space in our hearts. He is a good doggy, I hope I know how to train him to be a more gentle and calm when meeting strangers.

Two months

Journey to our home, Life stuffs

Oki has been with us for two months, I can’t believe how time flies and he is such a big boy now! The Rooba has been coming out to do its job, I’m looking at Oki with amaze of how he’s doing well with it roaming around. He is in his pen, observing but didn’t make any sound or shows fear. Although, I’m mad with him biting sometimes, he is still a good puppy. Our puppy that significant to my marriage, my relationship with Hunny. We share a lot of the “first time”, and having Oki is part of it.

This Morning

Journey to our home, Life stuffs, Sore spots

I see the change in your eyes when I look at you. You are tired and probably stress without telling me. The Hunny that I’ve known for so long isn’t the same anymore. It’s not a bad/good change, but rather a heavy burden sitting on your shoulder that made me sad. I blame myself not being able to go out to work. I blame myself for spending so much money. I blame myself not sharing your burden. I can’t even tell if you are enjoying our new puppy due to so much going on. I really really want to help…. I do…

Meeting Oki

Fun stuffs, Journey to our home

Today we drove an hour to the ferry, and spent two hours on the ferry, then another one and a half hours to the dog trainer, Karen. We finally got the trainer and met Oki the first time. We instantly fell in love with this little guy. The ride back was fine since Oki almost slept all the way back to home. He whine a little when we put him in the crate to sleep for the night though.

New place new starts

Journey to our home

We’ve moved in on Nov 29 into our new house finally! After a two months long renovation, we moved in with a thankful heart. Moving was quite stressful, I had been feeling anxious especially when the moving company messed up their schedule. We ended up having to split up our belongings to move in two separate days.

After moving in we were busy unpack, I had not been paying attention to weather. We have our coldest winter in BC so far, followed by heavy snow. The coldest day was -7 during day time, I wasn’t prepare to be honest. I was tired, anxious to get things unpacked, and I got a cold/flu. In just a few days, my coughing got worst and having fever for two days. I was very neglect to go to the doctor, as I thought I was praying fervently to be healed by the power of God. Deep down in my heart I feared to go to the doctor…. dunno why. However, my fever was going down, I went to Glover Medical Clinic at last. The doctor diagnose my sickness was due to flu and got worse into bronchitis. Taking antibiotic for seven days, I finally feel much better.

Too bad Hunny got sick from me, I feel very bad he had to take times off from work. As he was getting better, we got lots of things done around the house. We finally set up our own bedroom, and slept in our room first time last night. Later today I’ll put the clothing back to the closet, hopefully it’ll be done by the time Hunny comes home 🙂

Washer/Dryer

Journey to our home, Life stuffs

We found out the washer/dryer don’t fit in the laundry room the way we want, and probably we can hardly open the door to the garage. Hubby was very upset, but I don’t know why. I could have thought of a few reason of why he got very upset. I actually found that his reaction was very cute, hehe~ Somehow for me this is not a big deal, and I’m pretty determined that it won’t stop me from moving it.

If I’ve never said it before, I’ll say it now that knowing how much he loves me. He would always put me first, put my best interest in mind, and protect me from harm. Thank you Hubby for loving me! I might never feel like I deserve your love, but I am loved by you. I am and truly believe that I am loved by you. I love you Hubby! muah!