Category Archives: Health & Wellness

Renewal of Spiritual Journey

Health & Wellness, Pregnancy Diary, Spirituality

The renewal of spiritual journey starts with new life. The coming of baby Josiah has reminded me the grace of God. Oh how inadequate am I to claim that I have faith in God. I have such little faith to believe that He is my saviour, he is my healer. Yet, we chose his name, Josiah, the healing of God. Every time I felt scared, guilty, or broken, He reminded me the meaning of my baby’s name.

I’ve witnessed healing among other people, that lady in wheelchair got healed and started to walk. When I look at my son, I feel helpless and hopeless. I’ve forgotten what He can do or what He has already done. Yet, I’m reminded again and again, He is the healer.

I expected this is a longer journey to see Josiah to grow into a strong body, and strong mind when he grows older. I have such little faith to see the future. Now, I see that He is walking with us, we are not alone. We were never alone, He is here, and He will be with us.

Revive us oh God! Remind us daily Your grace and mercy. We need you oh Lord~ Strengthen our mind and soul so we may continue to walk undivided.

生離死別

Health & Wellness, Sore spots

早上收到 Fido 的訊息通知我missed 了一通電話。對照contact list 後知道是 Mrs.D， 接著收到她 line message 我還是沒有回。再過半小時 T 打來，原來是 她的 uncle 走了，問我可不可以去接她媽媽。她需要去 VGH，但是請我載她到 skytrain 也可以。我支吾以對地拒絕了。

這兩天我無法負荷身體的軟弱，又再次感覺無力，頭痛。加上我其實害怕面對生離死別，人生有一次就夠了。自從 Tammy 回天家後，我再沒有去喪禮，去了也不會瞻仰遺容。想到有一天是自己的父母，那是無可避免的。所以現在我不認識的，我覺得我可以能不去就不去了。請原諒我的軟弱，身體跟精神的軟弱， 我無法幫忙今天的任務。 我知道這幾天來 我早上都已經畫好妝，隨時是可以出門的。小狗也適應我們出門，但是 I feel like something is weighting me down … physically. I feel helpless and I dont’ know what I can do to make myself better.

是不是我又給自己藉口不去行動了？我是不是很自私？ /____\

Eggs explosion

Health & Wellness

I’ve been using the cpap machine for a week now. I did feel like my thinking is clearer and my vision is brighter. Still, I will wake up in the morning having headache, although, no more bathroom visit in the middle of the night. My blood pressure is still high, however, lower than before I started to use the machine.

I hate having headache, really hate is such a strong word but I hate it. It takes away all my energy in the morning and gives me a crappy mood.

Hunny has been patient with me and taking care of me. I’ve never felt so guilty because I feel like I didn’t take care of him. I feel like I’m his burden that he’s tired from work and still need to take care of me. The breakfast exploded this morning in the microwave, and I felt nothing but annoyed. Many thoughts were racing in my mind….. only if I can feel better, have more energy, think more clearly…. only if i can be as healthy as i wanted to be……

Hospital Visit

Health & Wellness, Psych stuffs, Spirituality

This morning I left home around 8:30 to take Ding Mama to the hospital for check up. It didn’t take longer than I anticipated since Auntie Amy was there to help. I must be honest that today I experienced many first time. I’ve never push a wheelchair before. I’ve never accompanied any one for a hospital check up before. I’ve never been so positive to cheer up a patient before. I’ve never been so active in helping people to make phone call (speaking english) before.

Today, I’ve experience many first time and I’m thankful I’m there to help.Three of us chatted and talked about many things. I learned that sometimes listening is good enough. I was being assured again that going into the counselling field is suitable to my personality. Although, I didn’t know why Auntie Amy said that. She surely told me that she could feel that I’m a good candidate for studying counselling. She must have sensed/ seen something about me, but I’m not sure what!?

I drove around after the hospital visit to pick up lunch, and also in attempt to pick up the medicine. I came to a conclusion that Ding Mama needs some one to encourage her and listen to her. While we were talking during lunch, she said she felt there was less pain with her legs. There was so much psychological stress for hospital visit, unknown medical condition for her pain, frustration of unable to walk around, the stress is definitely building up within her and magnified the pain. I’m not sure how to explain it, but chatting with her did make her felt better…. she took pain killer at 8:00am and hadn’t taken any when I left around 2:00pm. She told me that for the last few days, she took double dosage of pain killer in every 4 hours. However, the pain eased down today after the hospital visit.

This encourages me that actively listening can bring healing. This encourages me to not giving up to pursue my dream. This encourages me see beyond the listening and talking, when you focus on the patient well being. This encourages me to see what God is doing in my life and in their life. Ding Mama seems to know it’s her time to go, but God still gives her some time because of her mission on earth. She surely was urged by the spirit to preach to me and others that she cares to repent and turn back to God. Though, I’m not fully agree with going to church equals to seeking God. That’s her concept of getting closer to God, I won’t disagree that Christian need community.

Anyways, it’s an interesting day. God definitely is speaking to me and asking me to see a bigger picture as school is going to start in two weeks. I’m thankful~ I’m blessed. The Lord is with us. Amen.

Meeting Mr. Albert

Health & Wellness, Sore spots

Today I went to the clinic to learn some technique which can help me to overcome my stress and anxiety. I found that very interesting and helpful. By the end of the session I felt silly that I believe what I believe. Hopefully I’ll continue to practice this exercise so the truth of God may come and root deeply in my heart.

Medicine

Health & Wellness

I see the difference it makes in my body and mind, those medicine drops and tablets can be wonderful if I take it on time. Two night ago, I missed taking those at night and yesterday was not so good. I became very grumpy, my body was weak and swollen…. yes water retention ….in my whole body that made me very uncomfortable. How did I know? I took them on time yesterday, and still I wouldn’t sleep well because I kept waking up for bathroom. I got up about three times at night and each time I had a lot to ppppp…..

So I guess I need to take those on time, and stick with it for now! I’m so tired to taking those everyday and night…. ai…:P

sick

Health & Wellness, Spirituality

I’ve been feeling sick for the past week or so. This time I really felt that I’m physically weak and my body is in a fighting mode. I rarely got this sick, and Hunny thinks that it’s because I’m in a detox phrase and my body is weak. Somehow I’m glad that I got sick, I felt like the virus is hiding in me for the longest time. It came out and I can finally fight back. I’m getting as much as sleep as I should. I sleep whenever I want. Though, I don’t want to take too much medicine, it actually helped my body to fight in this time.

Spiritually, I feel that I’m fighting something in the spiritual realm. I really don’t know what that is, if that related to family, personal, friends or anything…. i have no clue, but it’s a battle and I know God is for me, for us! I pray that I stay alert, keep on praying when God’s willing. I may be able to understand one day. Blessings~ He who trusted in the Lord shall not be disappointed. For God is with us, not against us. He takes care of us, and guide us in the path of the land of abundant. He who trusted in the Lord, is not poor in spirit. He who fixed his eyes on the Lord, shall hear the Spirit’s voice. Amen. God is with us. He leads us to understanding, He mould us into His image. We are who we are because God’s image in us. If we have a heart of God, we will see the needs around us. If we have the eyes of the Lord, we will see those who need the Lord, the gospel. Amen. The Lord gives us wisdom, knowledge and understanding. Though, we may seem to suffer, the Lord has carried the load for us on the Cross. Through sufferings, we may see the Lord’s heart, His heart for people. Praise the Lord. He redeems us. Praise the Lord. He delivers us. Praise the Lord, He saves us. Amen.

ups and downs

Health & Wellness, Psych stuffs

There are times I feel that my physical and psychological condition are going ups and downs. Maybe it’s this monthly time again, I feel very emotional these two days. I feel a little depressed and I’m not sleeping well. I guess doing some exercise will help my sleep at night….

Will I ever get better and be normal again? I’m not sure if I ever know what normal is….

naturopathic visit – parasites

Health & Wellness, Life stuffs

It seems that blood circulation and hormone balance are getting better. However, my digestive system is very weak, and Dr. F found out that I have parasites. From my research this morning, having parasites might be affecting my digestive system as well. I would say I have 8 out of 10 from the list below >_<

10 Signs You May Have a Parasite

  1. You have unexplained constipation, diarrhea, gas, or other symptoms of IBS
  2. You traveled internationally and remember getting traveler’s diarrhea while abroad
  3. You have a history of food poisoning and your digestion has not been the same since.
  4. You have trouble falling asleep, or you wake up multiple times during the night.
  5. You get skin irritations or unexplained rashes, hives, rosacea or eczema.
  6. You grind your teeth in your sleep.
  7. You have pain or aching in your muscles or joints.
  8. You experience fatigue, exhaustion, depression, or frequent feelings of apathy.
  9. You never feel satisfied or full after your meals.
  10. You’ve been diagnosed with iron-deficiency anemia.

BC Day

Fun stuffs, Health & Wellness

We didn’t do much on BC Day, except we went shopping. Great deal at the Bay and we got some new clothes for hubby. Again, we drove by our future home just wanna check out everything okay.

I finally got to try that hot spicy korean noodles…. not too bad, taste pretty good.

We went out for a walk after dinner, iPhone apps told me that I walked 10,000 steps today. I’m still waiting for my Fitbit, so looking forward to use it for my everyday exercise routine… if there’s any 😛