Some horrible things happen in my dream, it was evil and something I don’t want to mention… I feel frustrated to have bad dreams. I feel like something happening in the spiritual realm I can’t explain and it is disturbing me in my sleep…. I feel alone in this spiritual journey…. somehow I feel alone…. and lack of strength to fight back….
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The Key
We got the key! We started to plan what needs to be done and renovated. Very exciting, yet, lots of planning … especially with budget that needs to set up wisely.
My Hunny
Thank you Hunny always putting my needs first.
Thank you Hunny for making my dream come true, making us a golden doodle parent.
Thank you Hunny for working hard, studying hard, and loving me ^_^
In three days
In three days, we’re getting they key of our first house! We’re anxiously waiting and feeing excited. Looking forward to move in, reno, and decorate the house, we will also get our puppy. Hunny just paid for the deposit, there will be a Goldendoodle in our house!
signed away
We finished all the documents signing this morning at the Law office. That’s it! We’ll get the key this Sat.
fear of rejection
something has stopped from finishing my application. it’s the fear that slowly and surely creeping up on me. i’m afraid of being rejected from the program. that fear stops me from sitting down and do the last bit of the video. that fear stops me from reaching out to my dream. i can’t say enough how much i think i’m incapable, how lack self-confidence to reach out that last bit of task to begin a great journey. hunny often asks what he can help me. i’m not sure if anything can help me except i can get rid of that fear in me.
besides, my mind is still bothered by the conversation with miss e. although i’m not surprised on how she’s very judgemental, she’s not the person i thought i know. maybe somehow i overlook the fact that she’s younger, should be much less mature. i dunno…
Talked to Miss E
I met Miss E today and we talked for almost 2 hours through our breakfast time. After our talk, I got a better idea of what’s going on in the L’s family. I’m a little surprised to hear some of the stuffs that happened. As much as I wanted to help, it’s really family business we’re talking about. I’m not sure if I wanna get into someone’s family matter. Yet, it’ll be in my prayers.
the forgotten one
Yesterday I was supposed to meet Miss K and Miss A in Miss L’s place. It was toward 5pm and I didn’t really want to go because I wasn’t feeling well. I had decided to go nonetheless because I wanted to try to connect with people. Hunny was almost home to pick me up to go there, I was all ready… except it was 5pm already so I texted Miss K that I would be late. It turned out they cancelled the dinner, and again…. I wasn’t informed
Talking about the forgotten one, I wonder why it is me… I wouldn’t say “always”, but it happened before. I have a pretty good guess now and I think I figure it out somehow. Probably I’m not weighted as important as other people, not gonna compare but I think it’s just a fact. I found myself this time more at ease in heart, somehow I kinda expected.
God certainly will never forget me, I’m sure… very sure because He love is greater than anything/anyone.
dream….
So I have dreams again lately, and last night was about Mr. C & Miss W. I saw that I was in Hunny’s car and they were beside me. They were riding on a motorcycle and Miss W came by my window to say hi. The red light was gone and green light came on, so we were about moving. Indeed we were moving but Miss W didn’t let go off our car window. Meanwhile I saw Mr. C was getting anxious to go and kept asking Miss W to go back. He was about getting roll as we were also slowly going…. all the sudden Mr. C fell off his bike; however, Miss W was only watching and didn’t go over to help him up. I was puzzled in my dream as of why didn’t Miss W show any care when her husband fell on the ground… I should discuss with Hunny later.
signing papers
we met Mr.R today to sign the bank paper. The mortgage is officially approved and done as we signed those papers. yay~