All posts by Miso

Miracle

Dream|Journey, Life stuffs

The Lord provided what we needed. As I’m such a little faith I always worried that we’ll not be able to afford mortgage and will lose our home. Somehow the thoughts of preparing for the worse always stick with me. I’ve never doubt Hubby’s ability, how he’s capable to do great thing for his work place. I’ve never worried that he won’t get a job or offer, because I know how much he’s capable to do.

Besides, there’s an offer from a firm in Surrey, Mr.N is trying to match the offer so that Hubby will stay. I’m happy for him, knowing that God never cease to amaze us. It’s a miracle that Hubby got a salary raise and he got to stay longer in the current work place. God is good! I’m thankful!

I wonder if I go out there to find a job, who will take me ? I experienced the worst work place ever in my life, however, I wonder if I will ever get a better work place. I lost my faith in people, the world out there seems scary to me. Lately, I’ve been thinking if I still want to study or work. Even with studying, I wonder if I still want to go for counselling, or theology. Something to think about ….

2+ week

Fun stuffs, Life stuffs

I can’t believe it’s only been two weeks since Oki came home. We’ve been happy, angry, sad, and frustrated all these times. Our life has been changed upside down for the good. This little doggy is growing so fast that I need to constantly remind myself to be patient with him.

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Life stuffs, Sore spots

Oki was in his playpen chewing his bone, and all of the sudden he started to rip the newspaper. Being a clean freak, I went in to clean up the mess. He kept ripping the newspaper and bit me. I was angry and stomp the floor. That must have startled him somehow. Then I stomped the floor while I walked away, he barked once and then quiet…. what did I do wrong?

This Morning

Journey to our home, Life stuffs, Sore spots

I see the change in your eyes when I look at you. You are tired and probably stress without telling me. The Hunny that I’ve known for so long isn’t the same anymore. It’s not a bad/good change, but rather a heavy burden sitting on your shoulder that made me sad. I blame myself not being able to go out to work. I blame myself for spending so much money. I blame myself not sharing your burden. I can’t even tell if you are enjoying our new puppy due to so much going on. I really really want to help…. I do…

Day 3

Fun stuffs, Life stuffs, Sore spots

I wonder if I should leave Oki in his playpen all the time. Today I put him in the playpen twice and each time when he came out I would let him go to the yard. Being his curious self, Oki found something to eat and play at the very back of the yard, I’m a little worried since I’m not sure what he’s eating. So I tried to put him on the leash but he didn’t want to walk. Another time I kept the harness on without the leash, he would just roaming around. When he came back in the house, he became a little aggressive when he played with me. I didn’t understand until he pee on the floor. I remember he didn’t pee the last time he went out, but I thought I could catch the timing if ever he needs to go….

I felt like a failure when I saw him pee on the floor. I’m thinking “I suck”. Now he’s sleeping in his playpen. I wonder if he was being grumpy because of holding the pee and feeling sleepy at the same time.

Meeting Oki

Fun stuffs, Journey to our home

Today we drove an hour to the ferry, and spent two hours on the ferry, then another one and a half hours to the dog trainer, Karen. We finally got the trainer and met Oki the first time. We instantly fell in love with this little guy. The ride back was fine since Oki almost slept all the way back to home. He whine a little when we put him in the crate to sleep for the night though.

Meeting Mr. Albert

Health & Wellness, Sore spots

Today I went to the clinic to learn some technique which can help me to overcome my stress and anxiety. I found that very interesting and helpful. By the end of the session I felt silly that I believe what I believe. Hopefully I’ll continue to practice this exercise so the truth of God may come and root deeply in my heart.

To HK

Life stuffs, Sore spots

Mom & Dad are going back to HK today. I can’t explain how my heart is deeply sadden by their leave. There are quite a few heavy feelings with their stay here. How many times I wanted to do my best but feel like I’m never good enough. Mom always has something to say no matter what I do.

New place new starts

Journey to our home

We’ve moved in on Nov 29 into our new house finally! After a two months long renovation, we moved in with a thankful heart. Moving was quite stressful, I had been feeling anxious especially when the moving company messed up their schedule. We ended up having to split up our belongings to move in two separate days.

After moving in we were busy unpack, I had not been paying attention to weather. We have our coldest winter in BC so far, followed by heavy snow. The coldest day was -7 during day time, I wasn’t prepare to be honest. I was tired, anxious to get things unpacked, and I got a cold/flu. In just a few days, my coughing got worst and having fever for two days. I was very neglect to go to the doctor, as I thought I was praying fervently to be healed by the power of God. Deep down in my heart I feared to go to the doctor…. dunno why. However, my fever was going down, I went to Glover Medical Clinic at last. The doctor diagnose my sickness was due to flu and got worse into bronchitis. Taking antibiotic for seven days, I finally feel much better.

Too bad Hunny got sick from me, I feel very bad he had to take times off from work. As he was getting better, we got lots of things done around the house. We finally set up our own bedroom, and slept in our room first time last night. Later today I’ll put the clothing back to the closet, hopefully it’ll be done by the time Hunny comes home 🙂