I’ve been using the cpap machine for a week now. I did feel like my thinking is clearer and my vision is brighter. Still, I will wake up in the morning having headache, although, no more bathroom visit in the middle of the night. My blood pressure is still high, however, lower than before I started to use the machine.

I hate having headache, really hate is such a strong word but I hate it. It takes away all my energy in the morning and gives me a crappy mood.

Hunny has been patient with me and taking care of me. I’ve never felt so guilty because I feel like I didn’t take care of him. I feel like I’m his burden that he’s tired from work and still need to take care of me. The breakfast exploded this morning in the microwave, and I felt nothing but annoyed. Many thoughts were racing in my mind….. only if I can feel better, have more energy, think more clearly…. only if i can be as healthy as i wanted to be……