something has stopped from finishing my application. it’s the fear that slowly and surely creeping up on me. i’m afraid of being rejected from the program. that fear stops me from sitting down and do the last bit of the video. that fear stops me from reaching out to my dream. i can’t say enough how much i think i’m incapable, how lack self-confidence to reach out that last bit of task to begin a great journey. hunny often asks what he can help me. i’m not sure if anything can help me except i can get rid of that fear in me.

besides, my mind is still bothered by the conversation with miss e. although i’m not surprised on how she’s very judgemental, she’s not the person i thought i know. maybe somehow i overlook the fact that she’s younger, should be much less mature. i dunno…