I started working on Feb 25, and it’s been almost two months now. Working among Canadian, I sometime feel like I’m out of place because of my lack of response. Most of the time I’m not sure how to react or what is appropriate to say…. sometimes I feel like an idiot just nodding and smiling….

Then, I got to meet hubby’s coworkers…. still feeling the same …. not able engaging in small talks…. nothing much to say…. and sometimes feel insecure because most of them are working in the upper level positions…. I feel inadequate or even less intelligent because I ‘m working in the lower level job.

Sometimes I’m afraid other more intelligent and attractive women around hubby. I know…. maybe my fear overtook my confidence in him…. I trust that hubby is solid rock when it comes to temptation….. but I don’t know why I’m afraid…. I just don’t know why….