I know I’ve never told you why I’m so neglect in applying for a job. It’s because my mind is set in taking care of mom and dad while they’re here. I can already feel the stress, and knowing what mom will probably nag me about in getting a job.

Yet, I want to spend time with them while I can. I can’t help but having watery eyes every time the thought of they’re getting older and will leave me one day. I think it’s even less than half of my life time I’m by their side, It seems I’m always in Canada.

And the more I think of taking care of them, the more I feel stress because nothing can happen without money.

The thought of going to work is kinda screw up my mind. I’m so afraid of meeting nasty people, nasty leaders, nasty boss….. I can say that I’m pretty anti social now, I must admit I’m not fond of the idea of meeting people.

Again, reality is reality. I hate to talk about money… but reality is I need to work to get more money.

I have a lot of “what if” in my mind…. anyways….