Oki was in his playpen chewing his bone, and all of the sudden he started to rip the newspaper. Being a clean freak, I went in to clean up the mess. He kept ripping the newspaper and bit me. I was angry and stomp the floor. That must have startled him somehow. Then I stomped the floor while I walked away, he barked once and then quiet…. what did I do wrong?
Monthly Archives: February 2017
This Morning
I see the change in your eyes when I look at you. You are tired and probably stress without telling me. The Hunny that I’ve known for so long isn’t the same anymore. It’s not a bad/good change, but rather a heavy burden sitting on your shoulder that made me sad. I blame myself not being able to go out to work. I blame myself for spending so much money. I blame myself not sharing your burden. I can’t even tell if you are enjoying our new puppy due to so much going on. I really really want to help…. I do…
Day 3
I wonder if I should leave Oki in his playpen all the time. Today I put him in the playpen twice and each time when he came out I would let him go to the yard. Being his curious self, Oki found something to eat and play at the very back of the yard, I’m a little worried since I’m not sure what he’s eating. So I tried to put him on the leash but he didn’t want to walk. Another time I kept the harness on without the leash, he would just roaming around. When he came back in the house, he became a little aggressive when he played with me. I didn’t understand until he pee on the floor. I remember he didn’t pee the last time he went out, but I thought I could catch the timing if ever he needs to go….
I felt like a failure when I saw him pee on the floor. I’m thinking “I suck”. Now he’s sleeping in his playpen. I wonder if he was being grumpy because of holding the pee and feeling sleepy at the same time.
Meeting Oki
Today we drove an hour to the ferry, and spent two hours on the ferry, then another one and a half hours to the dog trainer, Karen. We finally got the trainer and met Oki the first time. We instantly fell in love with this little guy. The ride back was fine since Oki almost slept all the way back to home. He whine a little when we put him in the crate to sleep for the night though.
Meeting Mr. Albert
Today I went to the clinic to learn some technique which can help me to overcome my stress and anxiety. I found that very interesting and helpful. By the end of the session I felt silly that I believe what I believe. Hopefully I’ll continue to practice this exercise so the truth of God may come and root deeply in my heart.
To HK
Mom & Dad are going back to HK today. I can’t explain how my heart is deeply sadden by their leave. There are quite a few heavy feelings with their stay here. How many times I wanted to do my best but feel like I’m never good enough. Mom always has something to say no matter what I do.