Monthly Archives: September 2016

Friends & Family

Life stuffs, Sore spots

I was happy to see Scarlett, it’s been six years since I last saw her. However, my body doesn’t agree with me, with all the activities I had last week. This tiredness is unbearable. I almost want to lay in the bed all day long, I’m that tired. My whole body is aching, energy level dropped to the lowest, and my mind goes blank.

So this morning when I saw Chris’ message, I’m pissed and annoyed. I’m not able to make changes for my schedule, it’s mentally unable … physically unwilling….. I’m tired for this…. I wish this could come to the end……. I’m tired…..tired…….tired………

Thankful

Spirituality

Thank you Lord for all your provision, we are rich even when we feel poor.

Thank you Lord for who we are in Christ, You put us in our families.

Thank you Lord for guiding us, You are with us even though we feel lost sometimes.

Thank you Lord for Your Holy Spirit in us, sometimes that tiny little whisper awaken our soul.

Thank you Lord for yesterday, today, and tomorrow, You renew us even when I feel like I’m getting older every single day.

Thank you Lord for my Husband unconditional love, it is Your love in us and draw us closer to each other.

Thank you Lord~ Blessings upon blessings. Your love is everlasting. Your grace is enough for us.

sick

Health & Wellness, Spirituality

I’ve been feeling sick for the past week or so. This time I really felt that I’m physically weak and my body is in a fighting mode. I rarely got this sick, and Hunny thinks that it’s because I’m in a detox phrase and my body is weak. Somehow I’m glad that I got sick, I felt like the virus is hiding in me for the longest time. It came out and I can finally fight back. I’m getting as much as sleep as I should. I sleep whenever I want. Though, I don’t want to take too much medicine, it actually helped my body to fight in this time.

Spiritually, I feel that I’m fighting something in the spiritual realm. I really don’t know what that is, if that related to family, personal, friends or anything…. i have no clue, but it’s a battle and I know God is for me, for us! I pray that I stay alert, keep on praying when God’s willing. I may be able to understand one day. Blessings~ He who trusted in the Lord shall not be disappointed. For God is with us, not against us. He takes care of us, and guide us in the path of the land of abundant. He who trusted in the Lord, is not poor in spirit. He who fixed his eyes on the Lord, shall hear the Spirit’s voice. Amen. God is with us. He leads us to understanding, He mould us into His image. We are who we are because God’s image in us. If we have a heart of God, we will see the needs around us. If we have the eyes of the Lord, we will see those who need the Lord, the gospel. Amen. The Lord gives us wisdom, knowledge and understanding. Though, we may seem to suffer, the Lord has carried the load for us on the Cross. Through sufferings, we may see the Lord’s heart, His heart for people. Praise the Lord. He redeems us. Praise the Lord. He delivers us. Praise the Lord, He saves us. Amen.

horrible

Sore spots, Spirituality

Some horrible things happen in my dream, it was evil and something I don’t want to mention… I feel frustrated to have bad dreams. I feel like something happening in the spiritual realm I can’t explain and it is disturbing me in my sleep…. I feel alone in this spiritual journey…. somehow I feel alone…. and lack of strength to fight back….

In three days

Journey to our home

In three days, we’re getting they key of our first house! We’re anxiously waiting and feeing excited. Looking forward to move in, reno, and decorate the house, we will also get our puppy. Hunny just paid for the deposit, there will be a Goldendoodle in our house!

fear of rejection

Dream|Journey, Psych stuffs, Sore spots

something has stopped from finishing my application. it’s the fear that slowly and surely creeping up on me. i’m afraid of being rejected from the program. that fear stops me from sitting down and do the last bit of the video. that fear stops me from reaching out to my dream. i can’t say enough how much i think i’m incapable, how lack self-confidence to reach out that last bit of task to begin a great journey. hunny often asks what he can help me. i’m not sure if anything can help me except i can get rid of that fear in me.

besides, my mind is still bothered by the conversation with miss e. although i’m not surprised on how she’s very judgemental, she’s not the person i thought i know. maybe somehow i overlook the fact that she’s younger, should be much less mature. i dunno…