So I finally decided to connect with Ms.L again, and answered her text. I stated that I was going through a majorly mood swing and depression. Then the conversation went on…. she invited me to visit her and go out with her, but I kindly rejected.

I must say I’m still in that mode and I’m not ready to go out yet. I understand she’s being kind and proactive to “help” me. Yet, sometimes what she does just make me feel like she’s being pushy. When I say pushy, I mean she’s not quitting to let you know that she cares. However, I’m a person need tons and tons of personal space. So when I need space, please leave me alone until I’m ready.

She texts me again just now and saying that when I ignored her texts, she thought I’m getting depressed again or pregnant. Thanks for caring…. but no need to mention depression in my face again. Sorry, i’m depressed or being emotionally unstable is not up for discussion. The fact that she mentions it just made me feel uncomfortable. I mean, don’t both of us know what’s going on already? so no need to say it out loud for heaven sake! Even if I’m pregnant…. yes… no… I won’t tell. I just realized that I’ll keep in contact with her, but…. deep down in my heart I know who are my closest friend…. really that’s cruel for saying that… yes, I’m just being honest here~